There is a chain of thoughts that occur every morning, as soon as I wake up, before my eyes even open and I’m fully awake and out of bed. It goes like this:
“I gotta get up. I gotta have a shower. I’m so tired! What am I gonna wear? I can’t fit into anything nice. Everything makes me look fat. If I could lose weight, I could fit into my clothes better. I eat right, I walk all the time, I shouldn’t be this fat. It’s not fair! They tell you to get exercise then you’ll lose weight, but I’m too tired to exercise. It doesn’t matter anyway. I walk all over the place and I never lose any weight. I’m too old anyway. My metabolism is so slow. I give up! I don’t have anything to wear. This is so depressing! I feel like just going back to bed, but I can’t. LIFE SUCKS!”
This is how I begin every day of my life. I’m sure many of you can relate to this post. Does deciding what to wear make you feel depressed? Or do you get angry, or does it actually not bother you? Tell us about it in the comments below.
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You echoed my thoughts exactly! As soon as I hear my alarm, my brain automatically says “Fuck. That time again. Time for another fight”. And then of course, it’s what to wear. I usually end up feeling AWFUL about myself when choosing an outfit and then end up leaving the house in jeans.
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