Untitled Poem 2


I wrote this poem recently when I was feeling very depressed and alone.  I felt so hopeless and misunderstood.  It seemed like no one cared how I felt.  I felt totally invalidated.  I’ve been feeling a lot better since then.  I hope this poem helps people without BPD realize how intense our emotions are.

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Every morning, I put on my armour,
To protect me from their poisoned tongues,
Each arrow pierces my soul,

With each one I die a little more each day,
How much dying can one take till they are truly dead?

I am not full of life,
I am not dead,
I am numb and feel nothing.
I am past feeling the pain,
Eventually you don’t feel anymore.

How does one feel so hollow, so empty?
A shell of a person?

How do you get past pain to nothingness?
How do you feel less than nothing?

What a curse it is,
To take on the world’s pain upon your shoulders,
Their anger, their fear,

To feel the darkness of a million souls,
All screaming in your head,
And filling your heart.

To feel it as your own.

And you can never stop the floodgate of emotions that wash over you,
Consuming you,
Draining you.

Dragon flames licking at your heels,
As you try to climb out of the hell that’s your life,
Only to be pulled back by your demons to be tortured anew,
When will it end?

– By Joyce Savage.

4 responses to “Untitled Poem 2

  1. SO relate to this poem today 😦 I am so confused and tired of being so many different personalities to gain respect from people ,I am drained and dont know where to go from here ………….

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    • Thank you for commenting. I hope you find some helpful information here and know that you are not alone. There is support. You can also check out my other links at the bottom of the page. (HUGS)

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  2. Thank you Joyce ❤ those hugs mean the world to me ,right now I have a tough decision to make and I rarely make them I get others to do it but this one has to be my own choice ((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))

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    • I know the feeling. We borderlines have so much trouble making decisions. People don’t know how hard it is for us to make the simplest decisions. We get so overwhelmed. I’ve written about it previously. I will be writing about it some more. Thank you for giving me so many great ideas for posts.

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