Bye, Bye Jack!

When I got home from my group yesterday, I didn’t see my Jack O’Lantern on the counter where it had been left that morning.  I asked everyone if they’d seen it.  My kids hadn’t seen it.  My MIL said she hadn’t seen it, and that “it wasn’t quite for kids, was it?”  I never asked her that.  I just asked her if she’d seen it.  I didn’t necessarily make it for kids.  I just made it because I thought it would be a really cool idea for a Jack O’Lantern.  I didn’t get a chance to ask my husband until this morning.  He just told me that it was it the way, so he “chucked it out back.”  I hadn’t even gotten a chance to put a candle in it yet.  I wanted to show you guys pictures.  I spent so much work on it.  Not having a good day today!

Nobody around here even cares about all the groups and everything I do to try to improve myself.  My husband and mother-in-law are always saying that I need help.  My husband just wants me to do more housework around here.  He needs help but won’t get any.

I’m trying to joke around about it a bit to try and feel better.  It’s not working very well!  I’ve been sitting here crying.  Everything hurts so bad!  I wish I could feel better!  I’m having stupid thoughts again about “I’m just in the way here. ”  I’m sorry for bothering everyone with this but I just had to let it out.  I don’t have anywhere else where anyone cares.

– Joyce.