Right now, I have a lot of sadness inside me. I don’t feel it right now because if I did, I would start crying and feel like I could never stop. I am sad about my weight gain. I am sad that I don’t have the energy to play with my son the way I’d like to. I am sad that I haven’t got the energy to do things for me that I’d like to. There are many other things to that I may talk about someday.
I don’t know what to do. I know that, if I don’t let my sadness out, eventually it’s going to come bursting out anyways. It’s been so long feeling like this. It won’t help things if I do let it out anyways. Things aren’t going to change. My weight is a huge one. It affects everything. I want to cry so badly! I’ve talked to my counsellor a little bit about it but I haven’t told her everything. She says I should talk to my doctor. I’m gonna have to make an appointment soon. I hate being so fatigued all the time. It affects everything as well.
I feel so hopeless and helpless. I eat right and walk every day. Walking is supposed to be the best exercise. I feel like I just keep complaining about the same things over and over. Who wants to hear that?
I just really needed to let this out today. Thanks to anyone who actually read this.