Trying to Self-Soothe while My Family Is Falling Apart

I am trying to soothe myself as I write this.  I have my music playing on the headphones, and I’m having some junk food.  I try not to use food as comfort but tonight I need it,  I feel like my family is falling apart.  My daughter won’t come home.  I feel like crying.  There’s more but I won’t get into it right now.  My counsellor has been away on holidays for the last two weeks.  Why do things always happen when your counsellor goes away?  If things were going well, I could take her being away for a week or two.  I have the Peer Support Centre and my family.  But I really need to talk to her soon!  Thank God she’s back on Wednesday!  Maybe she can talk to my daughter’s counsellor (who my daughter won’t talk to anyways) and get her to talk some sense into our daughter.  I hope so.

I ran out of Cymbalta this morning.  I took my Abilify.  I’ll have to get both my prescriptions refilled tomorrow.  I don’t know if that’s why it’s bothering me so much tonight or if it’s just been bottled up inside me for too long, or both.

I wish it didn’t feel like my family was falling apart.  😦  😦  😦  I’ll tell you more as it happens and as things come to me.  Thanks for listening!  I need it so much tonight!

– Joyce.