My daughter came over today. She said she needed money for new boots. The boots she has hurt her feet. They’re all scraped up around her ankles and heels. We told her we didn’t have any money. She started raising her voice at us. We told her to check out the thrift shops downtown. She said she wasn’t buying boots from a thrift shop. I told her to wear longer socks, instead of ankle socks. She said that that wouldn’t help. Then she started with the “You don’t even care about me!” She went out for a smoke then came back inside. When she came back in she was calmer and we chatted for a bit before her grandma drove her home. I hope she didn’t give her any money. She doesn’t have any to spare either. Our daughter has to learn that sometimes you can’t get what you want when you want it in life. Sometimes you have to say “I guess I’ll save up for some new boots for next month.” Sure, it’s not what she wants, but for many of us, it’s real life. At least I didn’t fall for her guilt trip today. Sometimes it’s so hard being a mom! She likes to catch me at the Peer Support Centre. Then my husband isn’t there to help me be strong with saying no to her. I have friends there that help me. They were just saying the other day how her and I seem to be getting along so much better. Probably not for long if I don’t give in to her and give her some money next week. It never fails. Almost every day, she’s there, ambushing me. I want so much to be close to her. But I don’t want to have to buy her love.
The credit card company keeps hassling me. I’ll pay what I can pay when I can pay it. We never used to have a problem with it before. I’d always make at least the minimum payment on it. It’s just in the last year that it’s been so bad with them. They said it’s now in Collections. We’re on ODSP (disability). We have no money. We can barely afford to pay our bills. We had to borrow money from a family friend to pay our rent this month. We’re supposed to be getting some extra money but they aren’t giving it to us. I’ve tried contacting Canada Revenue about it and have gotten nowhere so far. That money would really come in handy right now.
Oh well, what can you do? A lot of people are in the same boat as us. Money is so tight nowadays. Thanks again for listening to my babbling.