Dialectical Blaine

I woke up feeling the need to write. The need hasn’t presented itself in a week. The desire has been there, ‘I should write today.’ I suppose the thoughts which plague me as soon as I open my eyes haven’t been kicking around my brain lately.

Today I woke and frustration hit me. Frustrated by the people who have let me down in recent months. Fear of remaining in a relationship I can guarantee will hurt me again – the greater fear being humiliated in the process – please don’t let it be her. Sadness of feeling abandoned by several people – family, friends, partner. Shame of recent actions. Semi-guilt for the amount of food I consumed yesterday – I could have had a chocolate croissant in the morning, instead I chose to eat 3 after 10pm & an apple strudel – nevermind the 4 freshly deep-fried samosa’s I had for lunch. Upcoming…

View original post 251 more words


Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s