Wednesday was our son’s birthday. He turned 12. We got him a few small presents. He wanted a new skateboard but they’re not available yet. We’re getting him one at the end of the month.
Thursday was my anniversary. 17 years! I can’t believe it! It’s been rocky! At first, I didn’t know if my husband cared or not. I got him a card and he never opened it until later that night. I wished him a “Happy Anniversary” and he said “Yeah.” He did get me a card yesterday. I wasn’t feeling well the day before though. I thought he didn’t care anymore maybe. And of course with BPD, our minds go crazy with all sorts of thoughts.
Some days I’ve felt so tired and lazy, all I want to do is sleep. I have no trouble falling asleep at night. Other times, I can stay awake during the day (barely), but I can’t sleep at night. Last night, I had a pretty good night’s sleep. My psychiatrist increased my Abilify. I’m now taking 60mg of Cymbalta and 2 tablets of Abilify in the morning and 1 Abilify in the evening. I hope it works!
I’m enjoying Craft Group. I’m missing Women’s Group a little bit, though. I’m getting a little bit more done on my blanket.
Our daughter picked up some schoolwork to do during the March Break. She’s gotten quite a bit done already. I wish she could just get back to school. It’s so hard worrying about her all the time!
It’s finally supposed to get above 0 degrees! Yay! If only it wasn’t so windy out!
Don’t forget to turn your clocks ahead one hour before you go to bed tonight.
Thanks to everyone who follows my blog. I appreciate it so much!
Since I’ve been on the increased dosage of Abilify, I’ve been sleeping a lot, not all at once. I’ve been resting as needed. I felt tired all the time before, but not sleepy. I don’t usually remember dreaming anything. Since my increased dose, I am dreaming more. I can’t remember everything I dream, but I remember a few bits and pieces here and there. I don’t know if this is a good thing or not. I’ve heard that in REM (Rapid Eye Movement) Sleep, is when you dream and that’s when you solve problems of the day.
I don’t know if I should continue resting as needed or not. I’m just going with it for now. Maybe it’ll help me get better. I think I’ve heard that in Deep Sleep you’re not dreaming, that that’s when your body repairs itself.
What do you think? Does anyone else here have trouble sleeping? Do you find the topic of sleep and the brain fascinating? Please comment below:
Cymbalta 60mg (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
English: aripiprazole (Abilify) 2 mg and 5 mg (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
I saw my counsellor yesterday. It went pretty well. After that, I saw my psychiatrist. My counsellor went with me. She changed my meds. She added Abilify to my Cymbalta. Now I’ll be taking 2.5 mg of Abilify and 30 mg of Cymbalta for 10 days, then start taking 5 mg of Abilify and 30 mg of Cymbalta every day. It’s supposed to give me more “oomph” as my psychiatrist says. I’ve been waiting for more “oomph” for a long time. I’ll believe it if it happens. I’m not expecting much. I wish I could feel better! I see her again on Nov. 26. She wants my mother-in-law to attend our next appointment. Should be interesting!
While I was waiting to get my prescription filled out, I used the blood pressure machine at the drugstore. I haven’t checked it in ages. It’s usually normal. I checked it a couple of months ago and it was in the “high-normal” range. This time it was in the high range. I’ll have to tell my doctor about it the next time I see her, whenever that is.
I wish my daughter would go to her school program. She’s supposed to go twice a week for a few hours. She hasn’t made it there once. She says she can’t sleep at night, and she has anxiety about going.
I’d like to get my BPD group going again. Everything’s always so up in the air because of my daughter. I have to take care of me!