Tag: anxiety
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Difficult Weekend and Week with Our Daughter
I’ve had a very difficult weekend with our daughter. She had a temper tantrum because I wouldn’t give her any money. She did her usual behaviours, which she hasn’t for a while. Things were getting better – so I thought. My nerves were very raw all day. I cried my eyes out that afternoon, and […]
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Chemo
My dad had his first round of chemo yesterday. I was so worried when I woke up yesterday. But I kept busy all morning, and half of the afternoon, and mostly forgot about it. Until I met my brother for coffee. But my sister called yesterday evening and said that it went pretty well. Except that […]
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The curse of black and white thinking
A woman with Borderline Personality Disorder describes what it’s like to struggle with the difficulties of black and white thinking and how she deals with it every day. Her husband’s view, The Black and White Thinking of Borderline Personality Disorder, follows. http://themessyartofliving.com/curse-black-white-thinking/
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My Talk with my Counsellor and my Mother-in-Law
Last Tuesday, I met with my counsellor and my mother-in-law to try to help her understand my BPD. We had a very good talk and I think she’s finally beginning to understand it a bit more. I tried to explain to her how she was unintentionally invalidating me constantly. She told me that she wasn’t […]
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“I was gonna do that…”
I’m always saying to my husband “I was gonna do that, but…” And then he says “You were gonna…You were gonna…But you never do it. You always have excuses.” I always feel so many emotions all at the same time when this happens. The first and main thing is the feeling of “I’m not good […]
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Silencing the “Voices” in Your Head
Having BPD is like having a tape recorder (yes, I’m dating myself) playing in your head 24/7, 365 days a year, every year of your life. It’s like a bunch of “voices” all at the same time constantly telling you that you’re not good enough. You can never pause it or stop it or turn […]
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Neighbour Incident Aftermath
I was explaining the incident with my parents’ neighbour to my mother-in-law this morning and she asked me if I should see my psychiatrist. I told her that that wouldn’t fix this. She told me that if something like that happens to her, she’s feel bad about it for a couple of days, but then […]
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My Parents’ Neighbour and Anxiety
My mom and dad’s neighbour is so nice. She took my sister to the hospital at 2 am a while ago when my dad had to go by ambulance. But something she did on Saturday really got to me BIG TIME. My daughter and I ran into her at the store and got talking to […]
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Why Choosing What To Wear Gets Me So Depressed
There is a chain of thoughts that occur every morning, as soon as I wake up, before my eyes even open and I’m fully awake and out of bed. It goes like this: “I gotta get up. I gotta have a shower. I’m so tired! What am I gonna wear? I can’t fit into anything […]
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