I had a dentist appointment today. I got a few teeth pulled and a few stitches. My mouth is a little sore. I feel so tired and lazy. I’m gonna try going to bed early tonight. Not that it will work but we’ll see.
I had Craft Group at the Mission this morning. I’m knitting a hand towel. Next week I’m gonna make a salt-and-pepper holder out of plastic canvas and some yarn to go with it.
I had lunch at the Peer Support Centre. They had casserole. I love casserole! Then I carved a pumpkin.
I had a meeting with my counsellor this afternoon. Then I went to the dentist. After that I had to stop at the drugstore, then home to put supper on. What a busy day!
Here’s a picture of my Jack O’Lantern:
You can’t really see the detail in it but it’s supposed to be a dog. Maybe it’ll look better lit up. I’ll try to get a better picture later.
Thanks for being here again. Till next time,
I’ve been feeling so tired and lazy lately, even more than usual, which is a lot. Mondays are so hard this year especially. At least our son is getting up for school pretty well this year. The antibiotics I’m on for my teeth say “May cause drowsiness.” All I want to do is lay down all the time. I’ve even napped sometimes, which never happens. Right now, I’m just trying to listen to my body and rest when I feel I need to.
My computer is so slow! My husband and kids all say that I always have too many tabs open. I need lots of tabs open so that I can go back and forth between them. Sometimes I need to copy and paste links, etc. or compare things, so I need them all open at the same time. I just need a faster computer and faster internet and more money to pay for them both! No problem there (sarcasm!)
I have to remember to call my counsellor tomorrow and reschedule our next appointment. I also have to reschedule with the dentist.
I hope that everyone is having a good day / night depending on where you are. If not, I hope it gets better. Till next time,
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All I’ve done is lay around all day. Once in a while, you may need to do that for self-care. But when it turns into doing it all weekend long every weekend, it’s a problem. I just can’t drag myself out of bed. My son wanted me to go for a bike ride with him, but I just couldn’t. I disappointed him. I hate disappointing him. My husband wanted me to pop over to the store and grab him a treat. I couldn’t do that either.
I hate feeling like this. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I never used to be like this. I used to go for walks and bike rides all the time. Now I can barely get out of bed on the weekends. During the week, I go to my groups. But when it comes to the weekends, I just feel so tired and lazy.
Just had to let this out. Thanks to anyone who read this. Till next time,
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When my husband and I had a talk last night, I said that I was a very emotional person. He said that I hadn’t been really emotional for the last five years. I don’t know if that’s a good thing or not, or why it would happen. Are my meds numbing me out? I’m supposed to change dosages next month. I’m supposed to go from two Abilify tablets with a Cymbalta capsule in the morning and one in the afternoon to one Abilify with my Cymbalta in the morning and one in the afternoon. I don’t know if that will help me with my fatigue or not. Or if Spring coming will help. I hope so! At least I won’t have to worry about snow and ice and bundling up and freezing to death and taking half an hour to get ready to go anywhere. We can open the windows at let some oxygen in the house. I hope that helps.
I wonder if my husband said that I’m not as emotional meant that it’s because I’ve learned how to manage my emotions much better? Last fall, my mother-in-law and I weren’t getting along that well. But we had some talks and she understands me so much better now. I wish my parents and sister would talk about BPD with me. They only want me when I’m happy, not when I’m sad. I wish they wanted all of me. I tried to explain things to them once, but it was just too awkward. They’ll never understand. I don’t have to worry about my brother understanding. He’s a narcissist. He thinks he knows everything, but he doesn’t.
I know I’ve talked about this before but I can’t stop thinking about it. I can’t wait until April 1st when I change my meds and the weather gets better. Then I can maybe not be quite so fatigued all the time. And maybe I’ll have my emotions back. I don’t know if that’s a good thing or not though.
Thanks for listening,
I visited my mom and dad and my sister today. My dad has a cold and wasn’t feeling too well, so I gave him lots of hugs and made him some coffee. I taught my sister a new card game I learned at the Peer Support Centre. Just after I got there, my daughter called and wanted to come over for a few hours. She never calls them or comes over. She hasn’t for a couple of years. She probably just wanted to ask them for money. I told my mom not to give her any. If she wants money, she can get Welfare.
We had a delicious beef stew my mom made for supper, and some pumpkin pie for dessert. Then I watched some TV and relaxed with them for a bit before I went home. My sister lent me a healthy recipes cookbook to copy some recipes out of. I should do some baking one of these days. I haven’t baked for ages. I don’t know if I’ve done any baking in the last year or so. I used to love baking. Now I just can’t get the physical or mental energy to. I wish I could. Maybe someday. Wish me luck,
I haven’t gotten a wink of sleep all night because of my stupid arm! I’m so tired and frustrated! All I want is sleep! But since I can’t, I’ll try to do some writing, then probably go to the Peer Support Centre. Today is Women’s Group. I try to never miss it. I know what I’ll be talking about. Maybe send some positive vibes my way if you can. Thanks in advance!
Painfully exhaustedly yours,
Last year, my husband said that I never used to feel so tired all the time. I wasn’t managing my emotions very well either. I think that it takes an awful lot of energy to manage my emotions. I manage them a lot better now, but I’m so fatigued all the time. I wish I could manage my emotions AND have energy too.
Part of it is that I’m so out of shape too. I hate it! I wish I could get in shape. I haven’t got energy to clean or play with my son. I try so hard. I walk for 30-60 minutes every day. You’d think I would be in better shape!
Does anyone else notice fatigue from managing their emotions, or is it just me? I hope it’s not just me. But also, I don’t want anyone else to feel like this either. I know that doesn’t make any sense but who said that I made sense all the time anyways? Whoever did, they were wrong. 😉
Till next time,
I feel so tired and lazy today. Every weekend is like this lately. All I want to do is lay down on the loveseat and nap/rest all day. I wanted to get some stuff done today, but I haven’t gotten anything done, as usual. I hate being so fatigued all the time for no reason. It hasn’t just been a few days or weeks of this, it’s been years! It’s so frustrating and depressing!
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I LOVE THIS VIDEO! Does anyone else experience Chronic Fatigue along with their BPD symptoms, or is it just me? This video explains so much!