March 2nd Update

I am taking part in Project I Am Not Ashamed.  On August 18th, I’m going to stand downtown with a sign saying “I have Borderline Personality Disorder traits and I am not ashamed”  I told my husband and my sister.  They both said that they would never do it, but that they support me.  I’m gonna ask my friend if she’ll take part with me.

My son is turning 16 on Monday.  Wow!  I can’t believe it.  Our daughter will be 21 in August.  They grow up so fast.  Our son is really excited about taking his driver’s test.  I really hope he gets it.  It would give him a real sense of independence.

School has not been going well for him.  He got very upset on Wednesday and left early.  He has a doctor’s appointment this coming Wednesday.  I really hope they can do something for him.  He’s a very sensitive young man.  He doesn’t feel challenged enough at school.  They’re hopefully going to do an assessment on him to find out if it’s just anxiety or more than that that he’s dealing with.  Then they’ll have to find a medication that works for him or possibly counselling or both.  I don’t think he’ll talk to a counsellor.  I really wish he would.  Boy, I’ve really used the word really a lot in this post!  Lol!

Our son also has an appointment on Tuesday to see about getting a root canal.  They’re going to do a consultation with him – taking x-rays, etc.  I’ve heard good and bad things about them.  It’s his teeth so it’s his decision what he wants to do with them.  He’s old enough to decide for himself.

I’ve been awake since 4 am.  It’s now 5:40 am.  I’m meeting my sister this morning.  We usually meet on Friday mornings.  Her and her hubby do their laundry then, and I usually join them for a coffee and keep my sister company while she washes and dries her clothes.  We get together about once a month for a Sister’s Day.  We don’t have one scheduled just yet for this month.  It’s gonna be a very busy month for both of us.

This year, Easter falls on April Fool’s Day.  What a strange situation!

My oldest grandson turns two this month.  He was born on Easter.  I haven’t seen him for a year-and-a-half.  Our other grandson will be one year old this June.  I saw him once when he was two weeks old.

Spring is finally on its way!  We turn the clocks ahead next weekend.  The days are getting longer.  I’m so happy!  Winter is not my favourite season!  I can finally put away my winter boots and winter coat and get out my running shoes and spring jacket.

That’s all for now.  Until next time,

— Joyce.

Update for February 1st, 2018

“You don’t understand me!” I’d tell my parents when I was a teenager.  Many teens tell their parents that but I was probably in the throes of Borderline Personality Disorder.  They really didn’t understand me.  My siblings didn’t understand me.  I didn’t understand me.

Lately, my sister has been trying very hard to understand about BPD.  She is now one of my biggest supporters.  I’m very grateful for her support.

I’m going through a bit of a rough time right now.  I’m writing this at 11:30 pm, when I should be sleeping.  I can’t sleep.  I hope that tomorrow brings a better day.  Tomorrow is Groundhog Day.  I wonder if the groundhog will see his shadow?  Six more weeks of winter, or early spring?  I wish it was Spring!  I’m so tired of winter.  I can’t complain too much but I will anyways.  I just have to get it out of my system.

I hope that everyone had a good January and that February is good for you.  Valentine’s Day is coming up.  At least that’s something to look forward to.  Why does life have to be so complicated?  Family and relationships?!

That’s all for now.  Till next time,

— Joyce.

What A Week!

My sister is now married!  The wedding went very well.  My sister looked beautiful in her gown.  I danced with the Best Man and didn’t do too bad I guess, considering that I’d never danced before in my entire life.  I even danced with the groom.

In other news, my daughter had her baby yesterday!  A little boy.  I’m not sure how much he weighed.  He was premature.  He wasn’t supposed to be born until around the 1st to the 3rd of August.  He’ll need to stay in the hospital for about 8 weeks.  I didn’t get a chance to see him, but I did get to see my daughter for a few minutes.  I didn’t stay too long, as she needed some rest.  I’ll get to see my newest grandson another day.  I hadn’t slept the night before so I was so exhausted yesterday.  I slept well last night.

Hope everyone is having a great June so far.  Till next time,

— Joyce.

Pictures for my Parents, A Project and Postings

The Thursday before last, when my Community Peer Support worker took my daughter and I to see my grandson, we got some pictures of me holding the baby.  This past weekend, I visited my parents and sister and shared the pictures with them.  They loved them (of course!)

I showed my sister the plastic canvas project I’m working on for my Craft Group.  It’s a magazine holder I’m gonna give to my daughter for her baby books.  I tried to show my sister how to do it the way I was taught.  She picked it up pretty well.

I got behind in checking my emails this weekend.  I’m just getting caught up now.  I didn’t post a lot on here while I was getting used to the laptop, but now I’m posting more.

I hope everyone is having a good day/night wherever you are.  Till next time,

— Joyce.

Guilt, My Sister and I

My sister is seven years younger than me.  When I was in high school, she always wanted me to play with her, but I never felt up to it.  I always thought that I’d do it later.  I didn’t know that I had undiagnosed depression and probably developing BPD at the time.  I felt so guilty because of it.  We’re a lot closer now, but I still wish I wouldn’t been diagnosed and helped sooner.  Then I could’ve played with my sister and felt better.  I may not have developed BPD, who knows?

Whenever I go to my mom and dad’s, I usually bring my camera and go for a walk with my sister.  They live on a farm so there’s all kinds of photo opportunities.  I love to take pictures of the horses and the cows and the stray cats.  I also love taking pictures of butterflies, flowers and much more.  We’ve taken some beautiful pics of gorgeous sunsets.  I’d love to take some pictures right now but my camera got stolen.  But that’s another post!

– Joyce.

My Sister’s Operation and More

I saw my counsellor yesterday.  I told her all about my daughter stealing my camera.  She told me that I should lock up all my valuables and watch her closely.  It’s too bad that I have to do that with my own daughter.  I feel so bad about it.  I shouldn’t have to do that.  We had a good appointment.

I’m hoping to visit my parents and sister this weekend.  My sister just had her gall bladder out.  She’s recovering at home.  I talked to her on the phone a while ago.  She was doing all right, but still in quite a bit of pain.  I’d like to get a recipe from my mom to make at the Peer Support Centre someday.  A fellow peer said that he could help me make it.

Not too much else to report today.  It was drizzly yesterday.  At least it’ll get rid of some of the snow.  Yay!  It’s supposed to be mixed precipitation today.  I’ll just be so glad when all of the snow is gone and the grass is green, and the flowers come up, and there’s little buds on the trees.

Thanks for joining me here today.  I’ll let you know how my sister is doing later.  Ta ta for now,

– Joyce.