Not as Sensitive Now

I am usually not quite as emotionally sensitive as I used to be.  I don’t know why.  I don’t know if it’s because my meds are numbing me out, or if it’s because of learning DBT skills.  Or a bit of both.  I know that some things are below the surface and that someday they’ll explode.  I won’t be able to hold it in any longer.  I don’t know when that will be.  I’ve been doing well for several months now.   I try to be there for my family every day.  They need me to be a wife, mother, etc.  I think that’s a huge part of it.  I have to put on my “Happy” mask every day, until I become really numb because I’m so used to wearing it 24/7.

Does anyone else experience this?  What do you think it is?  Do you think it’s a form of protecting myself from too much emotional pain?  What should I do?  I blog.  That helps quite a bit.  I feel a lot of support from followers on my blog, Facebook, etc.

Thanks everyone for listening to me vent.  It is so appreciated.

Till next time,

– Joyce.

Feelings You Can’t Describe to Others

Just looking back at some of my FaceBook shares and noticed this post.  I never knew how to describe this feeling, but this sums it up perfectly!  Other people just can’t understand how this feels, but at least they can validate your feelings.