People like me struggle with regulating emotions, it is like being on a roller coaster you can not stop. People around you get wip lash from the swing and they often complain … but then fail to fully comprehend the internal chaos that I am going through.
For me, emotion is/was either neutral – not being happy or sad, to overpowering crazy anger that was unstoppable. My internal chaos meant that I would bottle things up and get angry at something some one did or said, until I would explode at my husband sometimes without warning.
From normal me, to super bitch me in 5 seconds is not that easy to keep up with.
Once you are stuck in emotion mind, the intense anger would spiral. I would use that as a way to make myself feel guilty, and worthless and so I would get even more angry. I would…
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